Moment

Softly she whispers to my mind
you will always only look inside
EVER I KEEP YOU r doubts right here gluttoning on your every fear I AM your only f(r)iend helping you to never mend.

briefly her venom weighs me alone

when the memory of my Saviour brings me back home.

I flood her voice with the sound of my lovely God,
whose eternal promise is all in His Sword-
Cutting away her flesh, until all that is left are the bones of her mess.

The meaning of reality

Why. What.

Is this all for? Really?

God chose us? I cannot fathom why. Our existence means nothing to the universe.

We are specks of specks – We are nothing – We are evil – We are war – We are hatred – We are struggling – We are selfish.

Rushing after our own needs.

 

What for?

                                                   We die.

 

                       And then.

 

 

What did it all mean?

 

Always

Always on the outside

            Always looking in

Tortured with what I wish I could have

           It’s not what I want

I want in

          I choose out

I want to be invited

       I want to have the choice

I want you to want me

        I don’t want you to ask me

Take me. Keep me. Accept me. Know me.

 

Void

Can you                          hear me

HELP ME

Can you                          help me

carry

the burden

that is

too much

for me to carry so all alone

Darkness       Misery
Consumes
me until
i am pain
VOID

Again

am i
what am i
i drift outside not here
tears inside i drown
pain     so much
am i real
such pain   i make
so much
i cut the scars
they will not heal
you know
i know
sorry
so sorry
forgive me
again

Lost

My mind Exploding.
My thoughts Melting.
My life Wasted, every millisecond.
My heart shattered crystal.

How do I mend all this Destruction?

Turn Turn Turn.
Twist Bend Break.
Tomorrow. The End?